Humility and Struggle ( Saint John of Shangai )

God's grace always assists a struggler, but this does not mean that a struggler is always in the position of a victor; sometimes the beasts did not touch the righteous ones, but by no means did they not touch them always. What is important is not victory or the position of a victor, but rather the labor of striving towards God and devotion to Him. Great is the Apostle Paul, but he asks the Lord many times ('thrice" means not once, but many times) that the messenger of Satan depart from him, for he "buffets" him, making some sort of attacks that are difficult and averse to his spirit. But the Lord leaves him in such a position: "My grace is sufficient for thee" (2 Cor. 12:7-9) - enough assistance of grace and gifts are provided for him. The Lord wants from the apostle the striving which cleanses his soul.

What is important is the state of the soul, the striving towards God, and not the stature of a victor. "Strength is made perfect in weakness"(2 Cor. 12:9). Though a man may be found in a weak state, that does not at all mean that he has been abandoned by God. The Lord Jesus Christ, according to the worldly view, was in trouble, but when the sinful world considered Him to be completely destroyed, in actuality He was victorious over death and hades. The Lord did not promise us positions as victors as a reward for righteousness, but told us, "In the world we shall have tribulation, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world" (Jn. 16:33). The power of God is effective when a person asks for the help of God, acknowledging the weakness and sinfulness of his nature. This is why humility and the striving towards God are the fundamental virtues of a Christian.

Saint John of Shangai

Μην σταματάς ποτέ να λεες την ευχή ( Γέρων Ιωσήφ ο Ησυχαστής )

«Η πράξη της νοεράς προσευχής είναι να βιάσεις τον εαυτόν σου να λέγεις συνεχώς την ευχή με το στόμα αδιαλείπτως.
Στην αρχή γρήγορα, να μην προφθάνει ο νους να σχηματίζει λογισμό μετεωρισμού.
Να προσέχεις μόνο στα λόγια: «Κύριε Ιησού Χριστέ, ελέησόν με». 


Όταν αυτό πολυχρονίσει, το συνηθίζει ο νους και το λέγει και γλυκαίνεσαι ωσάν να έχεις μέλι στο στόμα σου και θέλεις να το λέγεις.
Αν το αφήσεις στενοχωρείσαι πολύ.
Όταν το συνηθίσει ο νους και χορτάσει -το μάθει καλά- τότε το στέλνει στην καρδιά.
Επειδή ο νους είναι ο τροφοδότης της ψυχής και μεταφέρει στην καρδιά οτιδήποτε φαντασθεί.
Όταν ο ευχόμενος κρατεί τον νου του να μη φαντάζεται τίποτε, αλλά να προσέχει μόνο τα λόγια της ευχής, τότε αναπνέοντας ελαφρά με κάποια βία και θέληση δική του τον κατεβάζει στην καρδιά, και τον κρατεί μέσα και λέγει με ρυθμό την ευχή, «Κύριε Ιησού Χριστέ, ελέησόν με» ...;
Αν θέλεις να βρεις τον Θεό δια της «ευχής» δεν θα σταματάς ποτέ αυτήν την εργασία. Όρθιος, καθήμενος, βαδίζοντας δεν θα μένεις χωρίς την ευχή.
Να μη βγαίνει πνοή χωρίς την ευχή για να εφαρμόζεται ο λόγος του Παύλου «αδιαλείπτως προσεύχεσθε, εν παντί ευχαριστείτε».
Εάν μπορέσεις να λέγεις την «ευχή» εκφώνως και συνέχεια, σε δύο-τρεις μήνες πιστεύω την συνηθίζεις και μετά πλησιάζει η Θεία Χάρις και σε ξεκουράζει.
Αρκεί να μη σταματήσεις να την λέγεις με το στόμα, χωρίς διακοπή.
Όταν την παραλάβει ο νους τότε θα ξεκουρασθείς με την γλώσσα να την λέγεις.
Όλη η βία είναι στην αρχή, έως ότου γίνει συνήθεια.
Κατόπιν θα την έχεις σ' όλα τα χρόνια της ζωής σου.
Μόνο κτύπα ευθέως την θύρα του θείου ελέους και πάντως ο Χριστός μας θα σου ανοίξει, εάν επιμένεις».

(Γέρων Ιωσήφ ο Ησυχαστής)

Προετοιμασία για Θεία κοινωνία ( Αγιος Πορφύριος )

«Όταν πηγαίνεις να κοινωνήσεις τα άχραντα μυστήρια, πρόσεχε πολύ, έλεγε σε έναν αδελφό. Πρέπει να πηγαίνεις με πολλή προετοιμασία. Να έχεις σύνεση, εγκράτεια, νηστεία και πολλή αγάπη Χριστού. Να μην καθυστερείς περισσότερο από 15 μέρες».

Αυτό το τελευταίο αφορούσε τη δική του περίπτωση, και φυσικά στον καθένα έλεγε αυτό που του ταίριαζε.

Αγιος Πορφύριος


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The Providence Of God ( Saint Herman of Alaska )

A terrible accident has a power to awaken us to the realization of the existence of various calamities and dangers surrounding us, from which the Providence of God preserves us. At the same time it convincingly persuades us to acknowledge our own infirmity and weakness and to seek the Father's protection and His most powerful defense, which affirms us in the Wisdom and the Word of God, which came down from above by the will of the Heavenly Father under a curtain of flesh like ours, woven by the Divine Might from the Immaculate Virgin, for our salvation. He became man and taught us to pray that we be not led into temptation. This reminds us from what Father we have our existence, and this in turn should make us seek our heavenly Fatherland and our eternal inheritance.


Saint Herman of Alaska

(From a Letter to Baranoff, 1809)

Obedient or disobedient? ( Elder Siluan )

Why did the Holy Fathers place obedience above fasting and prayer? Because asceticism without obedience leads to vanity; if a novice merely does what he is told, he has no reason to be proud. Moreover, the obedient has cut off his will in everything and listens to his spiritual father, and for this reason his mind is clear of any concern and his prayer is pure. The obedient has in mind only God and the word of his elder, while the disobedient’s mind is full of various business and condemnation for his elder, and for that reason he cannot see God.

Obedience is necessary not only for monks, but for all people. Even the Lord was obedient. Proud and self-assured do not let grace reside within them, and therefore they never have internal peace, whereas the soul of the obedient easily accepts the grace of the Holy Spirit, bringing with it joy and serenity.

Whoever carries in him even a small amount of grace will submit to leadership with great joy. He knows that the Lord controls heaven and earth and the netherworld, and his own self, and his affairs and all that exists in the world, and for this reason he is always at peace.

Obedience prevents pride. In return for obedience you receive the ability to pray, along with the grace of the Holy Spirit. This is why obedience is greater than fasting and prayer.

If the fallen angels had retained obedience, they would have stayed in the heavens and would glorify the name of the Lord to this day. And if Adam had retained obedience, then he and his issue would have remained in Eden. But even now it is possible to return to Eden through repentance. The Lord loves us greatly, despite our sins, as long as we seek humility and love our enemies. Whoever does not love his enemies cannot achieve peace, even if he were placed in Eden.



Elder Siluan

Ο θείος έρως είναι η αγάπη για τον Θεό ( Γέροντας Παΐσιος )

- Γέροντα, ο θείος έρως είναι η αγάπη για τον Θεό;

- Ο θείος έρως είναι κάτι ανώτερο από την αγάπη για τον Θεό. Είναι τρέλα. Αγάπη - έρως - τρέλα, όπως φθόνος-μίσος-φόνος. Η ακριβή αγάπη προς τον Θεό, με τις θυσίες της, γλυκοβράζει την καρδιά, και σαν τον ατμό πετιέται ο θείος έρως, ο οποίος δεν μπορεί να συγκρατηθή, και ενώνεται με τον Θεό.

Ο θείος έρως λυγίζει τα σκληρά κόκκαλα και γίνονται τόσο μαλακά, που ο άνθρωπος δεν μπορεί να σταθή όρθιος, πέφτει κάτω! Γίνεται σαν την λαμπάδα που βρίσκεται σε θερμό χώρο και δεν μπορεί να σταθή όρθια. Πότε λυγίζει από εδώ, πότε λυγίζει από εκεί. Την σιάζεις, αλλά πάλι λυγίζει, πάλι πέφτει, γιατί είναι θερμός ο χώρος, πολύ θερμό... Όταν κανείς βρίσκεται σ' αυτήν την κατάσταση και πρέπη να πάη κάπου η να κάνη κάποια δουλειά, δεν μπορεί. Παλεύει, προσπαθεί να βγει από αυτήν την κατάσταση...

- Γέροντα, όταν βρίσκεται κανείς στην κατάσταση του θείου έρωτος, αν πονάη, το αισθάνεται;

- Ο πόνος, αν είναι πολύ δυνατός μετριάζεται και γίνεται υποφερτός. Αν είναι λίγος χάνεται. Βλέπεις όσοι είναι ερωτευμένοι, συνεπαίρνονται τελείως, ούτε ύπνος τους πιάνει. Μου έλεγε ένας μοναχός: "Γέροντα, ο αδελφός μου έχει ερωτευθή μια γύφτισσα, και ούτε να κοιμηθεί μπορεί. Συνέχεια "Παρασκευούλα μου, Παρασκευούλα μου" λέει. Μάγια του έχουν κάνει; δεν ξέρω! Εγώ τόσα χρόνια καλόγερος, δεν αγαπώ την Παναγία ούτε όσο αγαπάει ο αδελφός μου αυτή την γύφτισσα! Καθόλου να μη σκιρτάει η καρδιά μου!".

Δυστυχώς υπάρχουν πνευματικοί άνθρωποι που σκανδαλίζονται με την λέξη "θείος έρως". Δεν έχουν καταλάβει τι θα πη "θείος έρως" και θέλουν να βγάλουν την λέξη αυτή από τη Μηναία και από την Παρακλητική, γιατί λένε ότι σκανδαλίζει. Που φθάσαμε! Αντίθετα, οι κοσμικοί που έχουν ζήσει τον κοσμικό έρωτα, αν τους μιλήσεις για θείο έρωτα, αμέσως λένε : "Κάτι ανώτερο θα είναι αυτό". Πόσα παιδιά που γνώρισαν τον κοσμικό έρωτα τα φέρνω αμέσως σε λογαριασμό, όταν τους μιλώ για τον θείο έρωτα! "Εσείς πέσατε κάτω καμιά φορά από την αγάπη που νοιώσατε; τα ρωτάω, Νιώσατε ποτέ εσείς έτσι που να μην μπορείτε να κουνηθείτε, να μην μπορείτε να κάνετε τίποτε;". Αμέσως καταλαβαίνουν ότι αυτό είναι κάτι ανώτερο και συνενοούμαστε. "Αν εμείς, λένε, από αυτό το κοσμικό κάτι νιώθουμε, φαντάσου τι θα είναι εκείνο το ουράνιο!".

- Πως μπορείς να παλαβώσης, Γέροντα, από την αγάπη του Θεού;

- Να συναναστρέφεσαι με... παλαβούς, να να σου μεταδώσουν την τρέλα τους την πνευματική! Θα εύχομαι να σε δω... θεότρελλη! Αμήν

Έχω κι εγώ μια μικρή πείρα από την πνευματική τρέλα, η οποία προέρχεται από τον θείο έρωτα. Φθάνει τότε ο άνθρωπος στην θεία αφηρημάδα και δεν θέλει να σκέφτεται τίποτε εκτός από τον Θεό, τα θεία, τα πνευματικά, τα ουράνια. Ερωτευμένος πια θεϊκά, καίγεται εσωτερικά, γλυκά, και ξεσπάει εξωτερικά, παλαβά, μέσα στον θείο χώρο της σεμνότητος δοξολογώντας σαν άγγελος μέρα-νύχτα τον Θεό και Πλάστη του.

- Είναι έκστασις αυτό, Γέροντα;

- Ναι, είναι εκτός εαυτού τότε ο άνθρωπος, με την καλή έννοια. Αυτό είναι ....."έκστηθι φρίττων ουρανέ" [ειρμός της η' ωδής του κανόνος του Μ. Σαββάτου]

Η θεία τρέλα βγάζει τον άνθρωπο έξω από την έλξη της γης, τον ανεβάζει στον θρόνο του Θεού, και νιώθει πια ο άνθρωπος τον εαυτό του σαν το σκυλάκι στα πόδια του αφεντικού του και του γλείφει τα πόδια με χαρά και ευλάβεια.

Γέροντας Παΐσιος

"There are three stages for salvation ( Elder Ambrose of Optina )

In order to give the necessary understanding about the power and importance of repentance, Starets Ambrose would say: "What times have befallen us! Before, when somebody sincerely repented his sins, he changed his sinful lifestyle and lived chastely. But now it often happens, that during confession a person would detail all his sins and then continue his lifestyle unchanged."

Starets imparted another instructional narrative: "A demon in the appearance of a human was sitting and dangling his feet. Seeing him with his spiritual eyes, he asked him: "Why aren’t you doing something?" The demon replied: "Well there is nothing for me to do but to dangle my legs, because people are doing everything better than me."

"There are three stages for salvation. St. John the Golden Tongue states: a) Do not sin. b) If you have sinned, repent. c) Those who repent inadequately, have to bear their sorrows as they find them."

"It happens," Batushka used to say, "that although our sins are forgiven through repentance, our conscience does not cease to reproach us. As a comparison, the reposed Starets Macarius used to show his finger that was cut a long time ago: the pain had long gone but the scar remains. That is exactly the same that after repentance, the scars remain, that is, admonitions of the conscience."

"Although God forgives the sins of those repenting, every sin demands a cleansing punishment. For example, after Christ said to the wise thief: "Today you will be with Me in Paradise," his knees were broken. And what was it like to hang on his hands only, with broken kneecaps, for some three hours? It meant that he had to cleanse himself through suffering. The cleansing of those sinners who die immediately after repentance, is done through the prayers of the Church and those present, while those living, have to cleanse themselves through a change in their lifestyles and charity that would cover their sins.



Elder Ambrose of Optina

Πώς πρέπει να προσευχόμαστε στον Θεό, ώστε Εκείνος μπορεί ν'ακούσει τις προσευχές μας...( Οσίου Θεοφάνους του Εγκλείστου )

Να πώς πρέπει να ζητάς κάτι, από το Θεό: «Κύριε, Εσύ βλέπεις ότι χρειάζομαι το τάδε πράγμα ή ότι υποφέρω από τη δείνα συμφορά. Βοήθησέ με, όπως ξέρεις και όπως θέλεις! Γενηθήτω το θέλημα Σου ...;»,
Μ' αυτή την εσωτερική τοποθέτηση, να προσεύχεσαι πολύ. Όχι μια φορά, εστω και παρατεταμένα, ούτε για μια μέρα μόνο,αλλά για εβδομάδες, μήνες, χρόνια ...; Όλο να ικετεύεις, όλο να κραυγάζεις: «Κύριε, βοήθησέ με! Κύριε, λύτρωσέ με! Ωστόσο, ας μη γίνει ό,τι θέλω εγώ, μα ό,τι θέλεις Εσύ». Αυτό ακριβώς έλεγε και ο Χριστός στη Γεθσημανή, όταν προσευχόταν στον Πατέρα Του.

Και η χήρα της ευαγγελικής παραβολής βρήκε τελικά το δίκιο της από τον άδικο εκείνο δικαστή, μόνο και μόνο επειδή δεν κουράστηκε να τον παρακαλάει για πολύ καιρό. Κάποιος σοφός είπε το λόγο τούτο: «Πρέπει να γίνεις φορτικός στο Θεό και στους άγιους Του!».
Γιατί ο Κύριος δεν εκπληρώνει πάντοτε τα αιτήμα­τά μας;
Η προσευχή ποτέ δεν πάει χαμένη, είτε ο Θεός μας εισακούει είτε όχι. Και φυσικό είναι να μη μας εισακούει πάντα, γιατί συχνά Του ζητάμε πράγματα άχρηστα και ανώφελα. Και τότε όμως, εκτιμώντας τον κόπο της προσευχής μας, μας δίνει, χωρίς να το αντιλαμβανόμαστε, κάτι άλλο, χρήσιμο και ωφέλιμο.
Αυτός που σας είπε, "Και τί κέρδισες ως τώρα από την προσευχή;", είναι ανόητος. Εμείς όταν προσευχόμαστε, ζητάμε από το Θεό κάτι που θεωρούμε αγαθό. Αν, όμως, στην πραγματικότητα είναι ή θα αποβεί επιζήμιο - και αυτό το ξέρει ο Παντογνώστης- τότε Εκείνος δεν εκπληρώνει το αίτημά μας.

Μη εκπληρώνοντάς το, λοιπόν, μας ευεργετεί, γιατί αλλιώς θα παθαίναμε κακό, κακό που δεν είμαστε σε θέση να προβλέψουμε.


Οσίου Θεοφάνους του Εγκλείστου

Ας μεθύσουμε πνευματικά ( Γεροντας Παϊσιος )

- Γέροντα, φοβάμαι μήπως δεν σωθώ.


- Μη φοβάσαι μαζί θα πάμε επάνω. Μόνο να πης στην Γερόντισσα να μας δώση δύο μεγάλα μπουκάλια για τον δρόμο -πρόσεξε να είναι πλαστικά για να μην σπάσουν στο ταξίδι! ...;

Θα τα γεμίσουμε νερό και ,μέχρι να ανεβούμε στον Ουρανό, από την κούραση θα το πιούμε! Μόνον τρία δάκτυλα θα αφήσουμε και θα παρακαλέσουμε τον Χριστό να το ευλογήση, να το κάνη κρασί και μετά θα το πιούμε και θα μεθύσουμε πνευματικά κοντά στον Χριστό.
- Γέροντα, ποιό είναι αυτό το νερό;
- Είναι η αγάπη προς τον Χριστό και τους αδελφούς .
- Και η μέθη;
- Είναι η μέθη από το Άγιο πνεύμα. Αυτοί που μεθούν από το Άγιο Πνεύμα , αγάλλονται συνέχεια από την στοργή του Θεού, του Πατέρα τους.
Αν μεθύση ο άνθρωπος πνευματικά με το ουράνιο κρασί, η ζωή του εδώ στην γη γίνεται μαρτυρική, με την καλή όμως έννοια. Αχρηστεύεται για τον κόσμο, αδιαφορεί για καθετί γήινο και όλα τα «θεωρεί σκύβαλα». Βλέπεις, όσοι πίνουν πολύ και μεθούν, μετά δεν νοιάζονται για τίποτε. «Μπάρμπα- Θανάση, το καλύβι σου καίγεται», φώναζαν σε κάποιο γεροντάκι που το καλύβι του είχε πάρει φωτιά. «Άσ' το να καή» έλεγε αυτός, γιατί είχε πιει και ήταν μεθυσμένος! ...;
Η άλλη μέθη, η ουράνια, είναι καλή, αλλά πρέπει να είναι κανείς συνέχεια εκεί, στο ατέλειωτο βαρέλι, το ουράνιο. Εύχομαι να βρήτε την παραδεισένια θεία κάνουλα και να πίνετε και να μεθάτε συνέχεια από το παραδεισένιο κρασί. Αμήν


Γεροντας Παϊσιος

Why do we fast... ( Saint Seraphim of Sarov )

The leader of feats and our Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ, before setting out on the feat of redeeming the human race, fortified Himself with a lengthy fast. And all ascetics, proceeding to work for the Lord, armed themselves by fasting and did not set out on the path of the Cross without the feat of fasting. They measured the very success of their ascetism by their success in fasting.

Despite their fasting, and to the surprise of others, the holy fathers did not know weakness but always remained hearty, strong and ready for the task at hand. Illnesses were rare among them and their lives were extraordinarily prolonged.

During the time that the body of one fasting becomes thin and light, the spiritual life attains to perfection and reveals itself through miraculous manifestations. The spirit then performs its actions as if in a bodiless body. External feelings are as shut out, and the mind, renouncing the worldly, ascends to the heavenly and becomes completely immersed in the contemplation of the spiritual world. Yet not everyone can take upon himself strict rules of abstinence from everything, nor deprive himself completely of all that serves to relieve infirmities: "He that is able to receive it, let him receive it" (Mt. 19:12).

One should take enough food everyday to strengthen the body, so that it can be a friend and helper to the soul in accomplishing virtues: otherwise it can happen that through the exhaustion of the body the spirit can weaken. On Wednesdays and Fridays, particularly during the four Lenten periods, follow the example of the Fathers and take food once a day — and the Angel of the Lord will affix himself to you



Saint Seraphim of Sarov

In order for our prayers to be heard by the saints......( Saint Theophan the Recluse )

Have you ever wondered about how the saints can hear our prayers. This is a question that Saint Theophan tries to answer for us using the analogy of a telegraph line,


He writes,

When true prayer–that is, sincere prayer–moves in the soul, then that prayer, by means of the action of the element upon it, flies it has if on a beam of light to the Saints, and tells him what we want and what we are praying about. There is no gap between the time we make our prayer and when it is heard; the only necessity is that it comes from our heart. It is our telegraph line to Heaven. The very same prayers, which are not from our heart, but which come only from our head and tongue, do not produce a ray which rises to heaven, and they are not audible there. Those are not even prayers, but only prayer-like modes.Prayers need to be sincere and said with feeling and not just read as if reading an email. Only those that are sincere are heard according to Saint Theophan. As proof he suggests you notice how you feel after you have prayed fervently. If it was sincere you will feel a calming and an inner assurance that you will be able to cope with what is troubling you. This is the response that comes like the speed of light to a sincere prayer.


Saint Theophan says,

Prayer comes to someone who labors at it, but it will not come to anyone who does not work at it. We see that the Holy Fathers labored a great deal at prayer, and by these very labors kindled within themselves a prayerful spirit.Our thoughts in prayer must reflect a humbleness. Ask always, "if It be you will." Ask always for forgiveness of your failing to act as God has intended. And, always give thanks for all God does give you, knowing that even in times of difficulty He is providing you what you need for you spiritual growth. Keep in mind that your aim is to become one with Him in His Kingdom and that all things of this world are only temporary and means for our becoming one with God.


Saint Theophan the Recluse
Reference: The Spiritual Life, p 84-86

The essence of Holy Water ( Saint John of San Francisco )

During this time many Orthodox Christian will take from the Church bottles of Holy water to be used throughout the year. It is common for the priest to come to the home during this period to bless the home with Water that has been consecrated on the day of Theophany. Here are some thoughts on the value of Holy Water by Saint John of San Francisco.

On Theophany, the Day of the Lord's Baptism, every year a great miracle is performed. The Holy Spirit, coming down upon the water, changes its natural properties. It becomes incorrupt, not spoiling, remaining transparent and fresh for many years. This Holy Water receives the grace to heal illnesses, to drive away demons and every evil power, to preserve people and their dwellings from every danger, to sanctify various objects whether for church or home use. Therefore, Orthodox Christians with reverence drink Holy Water — a great Agiasma (holy thing), as the Greeks call it.
One should always have at home enough Theophany water to last the whole year, and make use of it at every need: in cases of illness, leaving on a journey, whenever one is upset, students prior to examinations, etc. People who drink a little Holy Water daily, before eating any kind of food, do well. It strengthens the powers of our soul—if it is done with prayer and reverence, and one does not merely expect a mechanical result from it.


Reference: From a sermon by Saint John of Shanghai and San Francisco

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Ἡ σχέση μὲ τὸν Χριστὸ εἶναι ἔρωτας ( Αγιος Πορφύριος )

Ὁ Χριστὸς εἶναι ἡ χαρά, τὸ φῶς τὸ ἀληθινό, ἡ εὐτυχία. Ὁ Χριστὸς εἶναι ἡ ἐλπίδα μας. Ἡ σχέση μὲ τὸν Χριστὸ εἶναι ἀγάπη, εἶναι ἔρωτας, εἶναι ἐνθουσιασμός, εἶναι λαχτάρα τοῦ θείου. Ὁ Χριστὸς εἶναι τὸ πᾶν. Αὐτὸς εἶναι ἡ ἀγάπη μας, αὐτὸς ὁ ἔρωτάς μας. Εἶναι ἔρωτας ἀναφαίρετος ὁ ἔρωτας τοῦ Χριστοῦ. Ἀπὸ κεῖ πηγάζει ἡ χαρά.

Ἡ χαρὰ εἶναι ὁ ἴδιος ὁ Χριστός. Εἶναι μιὰ χαρά, ποὺ σὲ κάνει ἄλλο ἄνθρωπο. Εἶναι μιὰ πνευματικὴ τρέλα, ἀλλὰ ἐν Χριστῷ. Σὲ μεθάει σὰν τὸ κρασὶ τὸ ἀνόθευτο, αὐτὸ τὸ κρασὶ τὸ πνευματικό. Ὅπως λέει ὁ Δαβίδ: “Ἐλίπανας ἐν ἐλαίῳ τὴν κεφαλήν μου καὶ τὸ ποτήριόν σου μεθύσκον με ὡσεὶ κράτιστον”. Ὁ πνευματικὸς οἶνος εἶναι ἄκρατος, ἀνόθευτος, πολὺ δυνατὸς κι ὅταν τὸν πίνεις, σὲ μεθάει. Αὐτὴ ἡ θεία μέθη εἶναι δῶρο τοῦ Θεοῦ, ποὺ δίνεται στοὺς “καθαροὺς τῇ καρδίᾳ”.

Ὅσο μπορεῖτε, νὰ νηστεύετε, ὅσες μετάνοιες μπορεῖτε νὰ κάνετε, ὅσες ἀγρυπνίες θέλετε ν’ ἀπολαμβάνετε, ἀλλὰ νὰ εἶστε χαρούμενοι. Νὰ ἔχετε τὴ χαρὰ τοῦ Χριστοῦ. Εἶναι ἡ χαρὰ ποὺ διαρκεῖ αἰώνια, ποὺ ἔχει αἰώνια εὐφροσύνη. Εἶναι ἡ χαρὰ τοῦ Κυρίου μας, ποὺ δίνει τὴν ἀσφαλὴ γαλήνη, τὴν γαλήνια τερπνότητα καὶ τὴν πάντερπνη εὐδαιμονία. Ἡ χαρὰ ἡ πασίχαρη, ποὺ ξεπερνᾶ κάθε χαρά. Ὁ Χριστὸς θέλει κι εὐχαριστεῖται νὰ σκορπάει τὴ χαρά, νὰ πλουτίζει τοὺς πιστούς Του μὲ χαρά. Εὔχομαι “ἵνα ἡ χαρὰ ἡμῶν ᾗ πεπληρωμένη”. (Α΄ Ἰωάν. 1, 4).

Αὐτὴ εἶναι ἡ θρησκεία μας.Ἐκεῖ πρέπει νὰ πᾶμε. Ὁ Χριστὸς εἶναι ὁ Παράδεισος, παιδιά μου. Τί εἶναι Παράδεισος; Ὁ Χριστὸς εἶναι. Ἀπὸ δῶ ἀρχίζει ὁ Παράδεισος. Εἶναι ἀκριβῶς τὸ ἴδιο. Ὅσοι ἐδῶ στὴ ζοῦν τὸν Χριστό, ζοῦν τὸν Παράδεισο. Ἔτσι εἶναι ποὺ σᾶς τὸ λέω. Εἶναι σωστό, ἀληθινὸ αὐτό, πιστέψτε με! Ἔργο μας εἶναι νὰ προσπαθοῦμε νὰ βροῦμε ἕναν τρόπο νὰ μποῦμε μέσα στὸ φῶς τοῦ Χριστοῦ. Δὲν εἶναι νὰ κάνει κανεὶς τὰ τυπικά. Ἡ οὐσία εἶναι νὰ εἴμαστε μαζὶ μὲ τὸν Χριστό. Νὰ ξυπνήσει ἡ ψυχὴ καὶ ν’ ἀγαπήσει τὸν Χριστό, νὰ γίνει ἁγία. Νὰ ἐπιδοθεῖ στὸν θεῖο ἔρωτα. Ἔτσι θὰ μᾶς ἀγαπήσει κι Ἐκεῖνος. Θὰ εἶναι τότε ἡ χαρὰ ἡ ἀναφαίρετη. Αὐτὸ θέλει πιὸ πολὺ ὁ Χριστός, νὰ μᾶς γεμίζει ἀπὸ χαρά, διότι εἶναι ἡ πηγὴ τῆς χαρᾶς. Αὐτὴ ἡ χαρὰ εἶναι δῶρο τοῦ Χριστοῦ. Μέσα σ’ αὐτὴ τὴ χαρὰ θὰ γνωρίσουμε τὸν Χριστό. Δὲν μποροῦμε νὰ Τὸν γνωρίσουμε, ἂν Ἐκεῖνος δὲν μᾶς γνωρίσει. Πῶς τὸ λέει ὁ Δαβίδ; “Ἐὰν μὴ Κύριος οἰκοδομήσει οἶκον, εἰς μάτην ἐκοπίασαν οἱ οἰκοδομοῦντες. ἐὰν μὴ Κύριος φυλάξῃ πόλιν, εἰς μάτην ἠγρύπνησεν ὁ φυλάσσων” (Ψαλμ. 126, 1).

Αὐτὰ ἡ ψυχή μας θέλει νὰ ἀποκτήσει. Ἂν προετοιμαστοῦμε ἀνάλογα, ἡ χάρις θὰ μᾶς τὰ δώσει. Δὲν εἶναι δύσκολο. Ἂν ἀποσπάσουμε τὴ χάρη, ὅλα εἶναι εὔκολα. χαρούμενα κι εὐλογία Θεοῦ. Ἡ θεία χάρις διαρκῶς κρούει τὴν πόρτα τῆς ψυχῆς μας καὶ περιμένει ν’ ἀνοίξουμε, γιὰ νὰ ἔλθει στὴν διψῶσαν καρδίαν μας καὶ νὰ τὴν πληρώσει. Τὸ πλήρωμα εἶναι ὁ Χριστός, ἡ Παναγία μας, ἡ Ἁγία Τριάς. Τί ὡραῖα πράγματα!

Ἅμα ἀγαπάεις, ζεῖς στὴν Ὁμόνοια καὶ δὲν ξέρεις ὅτι βρίσκεσαι στὴν Ὁμόνοια. Οὔτε στὰ αὐτοκίνητα βλέπεις, οὔτε κόσμο βλέπεις, οὔτε τίποτε. Εἶσαι μέσα σου μὲ τὸ πρόσωπο ποὺ ἀγαπάεις. Τὸ ζεῖς, τὸ εὐχαριστεῖσαι, σὲ ἐμπνέει. Δὲν εἶναι ἀληθινὰ αὐτά; Σκεφτεῖτε αὐτὸ τὸ πρόσωπο ποὺ ἀγαπᾶτε νὰ εἶναι ὁ Χριστός. Ὁ Χριστὸς στὸ νοῦ σου, ὁ Χριστὸς στὴν καρδιά σου, ὁ Χριστὸς σ’ ὅλο σου τὸ εἶναι, ὁ Χριστὸς παντοῦ.

Ὁ Χριστὸς εἶναι ἡ ζωή, ἡ πηγὴ τῆς ζωῆς, ἡ πηγὴ τῆς χαρᾶς, ἡ πηγὴ τοῦ φωτὸς τοῦ ἀληθινοῦ, τὸ πᾶν. Ὅποιος ἀγαπάει τὸν Χριστὸ καὶ τοὺς ἄλλους, αὐτὸς ζεῖ τὴ ζωή. Ζωὴ χωρὶς Χριστὸ εἶναι θάνατος, εἶναι κόλαση δὲν εἶναι ζωή. Αὐτὴ εἶναι ἡ κόλαση, ἡ μὴ ἀγάπη. Ζωὴ εἶναι ὁ Χριστός. Ἡ ἀγάπη εἶναι ἡ ζωὴ τοῦ Χριστοῦ. Ἢ θὰ εἶσαι στὴ ζωὴ ἢ στὸ θάνατο. Ἀπὸ σένα ἐξαρτᾶται νὰ διαλέξεις.

Ἕνας νὰ εἶναι ὁ στόχος μας, ἡ ἀγάπη στὸν Χριστό, στὴν Ἐκκλησία, στὸν πλησίον. Ἡ ἀγάπη, ἡ λατρεία πρὸς τὸν Θεό, ἡ λαχτάρα, ἡ ἕνωση μὲ τὸν Χριστὸ καὶ μὲ τὴν Ἐκκλησία εἶναι ὁ ἐπὶ γῆς Παράδεισος. Ἡ ἀγάπη στὸν Χριστὸ εἶναι κι ἀγάπη στὸν πλησίον, σ’ ὅλους, καὶ στοὺς ἐχθρούς. Ὁ Χριστιανὸς πονάει γιὰ ὅλους, θέλει ὅλοι νὰ σωθοῦν, ὅλοι νὰ γευτοῦν τὴ Βασιλεία τοῦ Θεοῦ. Αὐτὸς εἶναι ὁ χριστιανισμός. Μέσῳ τῆς ἀγάπης πρὸς τὸν ἀδελφὸ θὰ κατορθώσουμε ν’ ἀγαπήσουμε τὸν Θεό. Ἐνῶ τὸ ἐπιθυμοῦμε, ἐνῶ τὸ θέλουμε, ἐνῶ εἴμαστε ἄξιοι, ἡ θεία χάρις ἔρχεται μέσῳ τοῦ ἀδελφοῦ. Ὅταν ἀγαπᾶμε τὸν ἀδελφό, ἀγαπᾶμε τὴν Ἐκκλησία, ἄρα τὸν Χριστό. Μέσα στὴν Ἐκκλησία εἴμαστε κι ἐμεῖς. Ἄρα ὅταν ἀγαπᾶμε τὴν Ἐκκλησία, ἀγαπᾶμε καὶ τὸν ἑαυτό μας.



Βίος καὶ Λόγοι Γέροντος Πορφυρίου, σελ. 207-210

Spiritual Training.( Saint Nektarios of Aegina )

Spiritual training (pneumatic gymnasia) is askesis for piety. It is most valuable, "having promise for the life that now is, and for that which is to come." The efforts made for the sake of piety bring spiritual gladness.

Theophylaktos says: "Train yourself for piety, that is, for pure faith and the right life. Training, then, and continual efforts are necessary; for he who trains exercises until he perspires, even when there is no contest."

Training accustoms one to be lenient, temperate, capable of controlling his anger, subduing his desires, doing works of charity, showing love for his fellow men, practicing virtue. Training is virtuous askesis, rendering one's way of life admirable.

Askesis is practice, meditation, training, self-control, love of labor.



Saint Nektarios of Aegina

Να αποφεύγεις την αμαρτίαν μετά την εξομολόγησιν. ( Γέροντας Ιερώνυμος της Αιγίνης )

Εις τον πνευματικόν να λέτε, είμαι αμαρτωλός, έπεσα, εν γενικές γραμμές... όσο να καταλάβει το είδος της πτώσεως.

Δεν χρειάζεται λεπτομερώς το είδος και ό τρόπος της αμαρτίας διότι ημπορεί -από πειρασμόν- να βλέψωμεν και εκείνον.

Και εκείνος σάρκα φορεί. Λυπηθείτε, προφυλάξετε και τον Ιερέα και τον εαυτόν σας. Αν δεν τον προφυλάξετε και άλλην άμαρτίαν θα έχετε.


Ό αέρας όλους μας φυσά. Δεν φυσά τον έναν και τον άλλον αφήνει. Προσέχετε, να προφυλάγετε και τον άλλον.


Να αποφεύγεις την αμαρτίαν μετά την εξομολόγησιν.

Να λέγεις πέρασα από την φωτιά και γλίτωσα. Ό Κύριος τώρα με ελέησε. Να ξαναπεράσω; Μήπως οργιστεί ό Θεός;

Μετά την εξομολόγησιν κλείνει ή πληγή της αμαρτίας, αλλά μένει το σημάδι.

Ενίοτε να βλέπεις το σημάδι δια να λυπήσαι και να προσέχεις (ότι την ανομίαν μου εγώ γιγνώσκω). Εις την δεύτερον Παρουσίαν θα φύγουν και τα σημάδια.


'Η Εξομολόγησης ξανά δι' ότι εξομολογήθεις, είναι απιστία στο μυστήριον.



Γέροντας Ιερώνυμος της Αιγίνης

Να λεμε την ευχή..... ( Γέροντας Ιωσήφ ο Ησυχαστής )

Το στόμα σου αδιαλείπτως να μελετά την ευχή: Κύριε Ιησού Χριστέ, Υιέ του Θεού, ελέησόν με!! Με την ευχή, θα καθαρίσει ο νους σου και θα την κατεβάσει στην καρδιά και θα γίνει διαδρομή, ένωση νου, λόγου και καρδιάς, και θα γίνει Παράδεισος μέσα σου.


Γέροντας Ιωσήφ ο Ησυχαστής

Remembering the Lord ( Elder Siluan )

Whoever loves the Lord remembers Him always, and this memory of the Lord gives birth to prayer. If you do not remember the Lord, you will not pray; in the absence of prayer the soul languishes without the love of God. For it is through prayer that we feel the grace of the Holy Spirit. Prayer saves man from sin, for a praying mind is busy with God and stands in humility before the Lord, whom the soul recognizes.

Prayer is given to those who pray, as the Scriptures say, but prayer offered only by force of habit, without heartfelt sorrow for sins, is not pleasing to the Lord. A loving soul cannot abstain from prayer, for it strives to reach Him through the grace which it feels by means of prayer.

For prayer we have been given churches, in which services are conducted according to books, but you cannot take a church with you, and even books are not always available, whereas internal prayer is with you always and in all places. Holy rites are performed in churches in the presence of the Holy Spirit, but the soul is the best church of God, and whoever prays in the soul knows the world as his church. But this is not for everyone.

Many pray aloud and like to pray from books, and this is good, and the Lord accepts their prayers and has mercy on them. But if someone should pray to the Lord and be thinking of something else, this prayer will not be heard. Whoever prays through habit has no change in prayer, but whoever prays with feeling has many changes: there is a struggle with the enemy, a struggle with oneself, with passions, a struggle with others, and one must remain hearty. Many like to read good books, and this is commendable, but prayer is best.

If your mind wishes to pray in your heart and cannot, then read the prayer aloud and keep your mind on the words of the prayer, as the "Ladder" recommends. In time, the Lord will give you prayer of the heart without interfering thoughts, and prayer will become easy. Some have damaged their hearts by forcing their minds to pray in their hearts and have even reached a point where their mouths could not say the words. Know the order of religious life: gifts are given to a simple, humble, attentive soul. Whoever is obedient is sparing in everything: food, words, acts; to these the Lord gives prayer, and it repeats easily in the heart.

Unceasing prayer derives from love and is lost through passing judgment, idle talk and intemperance. Whoever loves God might think about Him day and night, because no activities can stand in the way of loving God. The Apostles loved God and the world did not stand in their way, though they understood the world, and prayed for it, and preached.

Elder Siluan

Praying with pain of the heart ( Elder Paisios )

First of all, Elder Paisios tells us that, for love to blossom in the heart, we must pray with pain of heart. Once he was asked, "We pray, Elder, and our thoughts go here and there. Why?"

"Because it is prayer without pain!" replied the Elder. "To pray with the heart, we must hurt. Just as when we hit our hand or some other part of our body, our mind (nous) ("Nous: the highest faculty or power of the human soul, called by the Holy Fathers "the eye of the soul," St. John Damascene, and "the spiritual nature of man," St. Isaac the Syrian) is gathered to the point we are hurting, so also for the mind to gather in the heart, the heart must hurt."

The Elder was then asked, "How can we preserve ourselves in this state when we don’t have some problem, some pain?"

He replied, "We should make the other’s pain our own!! We must love the other, must hurt for him, so that we can pray for him. We must come out little by little from our own self and begin to love, to hurt for other people as well, for our family first then for the large family of Adam, of God" (Athanasios Rakovalis, Talks with Father Paisios (Thessalonica, Greece: Orthodox Kypseli, 2000), pp. 123-24).

At another time the Elder said, "The more one hurts, the more divine consolation one receives, because otherwise it is not possible to stand the pain... God especially consoles those who hurt for others" (Ibid.,p. 124).

To his spiritual children the Elder wrote: "To some people your love will be expressed with joy and to others it will be expressed with your pain. You will consider everyone your brother or your sister, for we are all children of Eve (of the large family of Adam, of God). Then, in your prayer you will say: ‘My God, help those first who are in greater need, whether they are alive or reposed brothers in the Lord.’ At that point, you will share your heart with the whole world and you will have nothing but immense love, which is Christ" (Elder Paisios of Mount Athos, Epistles, p. 50).

Η πίστη, βάση της αγάπης ( Άγ. Νικόλαος Βελιμίροβιτς )

Η πίστη είναι η βάση της αγάπης.
Ξαγρύπνα ασταμάτητα, για να κρατάς την πίστη, και ξαγρύπνα ασταμάτητα ώστε ο σταυρός της αγάπης, τον οποίο η πίστη φέρνει μέσα της, να αυξηθεί και να σου φέρει χαρά.
Εφόσον μόνη της η πίστη χωρίς την αγάπη θα παρέμενε κρύα και άχαρη. Όμως και όταν μέσα σου κρυώσει η αγάπη και δεν αυξηθεί και δεν φέρει καρπό χαράς, κράτα την πίστη και περίμενε.
Κράτα την πίστη με κάθε κόστος. Και περίμενε, ακόμα και χρόνια, μέχρι η αγάπη να φυτρώσει από την πίστη. Εάν χάσεις την αγάπη, θα έχεις χάσει πολλά, όμως εάν χάσεις και την πίστη, τα έχεις χάσει όλα. Εάν χάσεις την αγάπη, θα έχεις χάσει τον καρπό από το δέντρο, όμως εάν χάσεις την πίστη, θα έχεις κόψει το δέντρο.
Όταν μία χρονιά ο αγρός δεν φέρει καρπούς, ο υπομονετικός νοικοκύρης καλλιεργεί τον αγρό με διπλάσιο κόπο, ώστε την επόμενη χρονιά να φέρει σοδειά. Του λένε οι γείτονες να πουλήσει τον αγρό, ενώ αυτός σιωπά και εργάζεται.
Όταν και την επόμενη χρονιά ο αγρός δεν φέρει σοδειά, ο υπομονετικός νοικοκύρης καλλιεργεί τον αγρό με τριπλάσιο κόπο. Ακόμα πιο δυνατά του φωνάζουν οι γείτονες να πουλήσει τον αγρό, ενώ αυτός σιωπά και εργάζεται.
Και όταν την τρίτη χρονιά ο αγρός φέρει σοδειά, είναι τριπλάσια η χαρά του νοικοκύρη. Τότε οι γείτονές του σιωπούν και αυτός χαίρεται. Ενώ εάν είχε πουλήσει τον αγρό την πρώτη χρονιά, τι θα χαιρόταν;
Αγίου Νικόλαος Βελιμίροβιτς, Στοχασμοί περί καλού και κακού, εκδ. Εν πλω, σ. 98-99.


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Spiritual love is superior to the love between natural brothers and sisters ( Elder Paisios )

Spiritual love is superior to the love between natural brothers and sisters because one relates to another through Christ and not a common mother. Those who possess this pure (noble) love are full of kindness, because they have Christ inside them and the Godhead is depicted on their faces. Naturally, it is impossible for Christ’s love to enter within us unless we separate our self from our love, offer it to God and His images, and give ourselves to others without wanting them to commit themselves to us.

Those who suffer deeply for the salvation of the whole world and help in their own way (as strugglers) and humbly entrust themselves to the hands of God, feel the greatest joy in the world. Their life is a constant doxology, for they flutter about internally like angels, glorifying God day and night. Those, however, who neglect the salvation of their souls and try to find joy and rest in this vain life, are continually tortured and entangled in endless worldly machinery and live in hell in this life.

Those who have philotimo, because they move within the heavenly sphere of doxology, joyfully accept their trials as well as their blessings, and glorify God for them. Thus, they are continuously receiving God’s blessing from everything and are melting internally out of gratitude towards God, which they express in every spiritual way possible, like children of God.

Although the Good God gives us abundant blessings, acts always for our own good and has made everything to be of service to us and to be sacrificed for us, from plants to animals and birds, whether big or small, and even though God Himself sacrificed His life to redeem man, many of us remain indifferent and wound Him with our great ingratitude and insensitivity. And, all of this even though He has given us our conscience as an inheritance together with all His other blessings.

Conscience is the first law of God, which He deeply carved in the hearts of the First Created, and consequently, each one of us takes it as a "photocopy" from his parents when he is born. Those who have managed to sensitize their consciences through the daily study of themselves feel themselves estranged from this world; and, as a result, worldly people are dumfounded by their discerning behavior. Those, however, who do not examine their consciences are neither benefited by spiritual study nor by the advice of the Elders, nor are they even able to keep God’s commandments, since they quickly become insensitive.

Those who are sensitive and have philotimo, and who observe everything with precision, are usually wronged by the insensitive ones due to the constant concessions they make for them out of love. However, God’s love is always on their side. Oftentimes, they wrong themselves due to their hypersensitivity, overemphasizing their minor sins or bearing the burden of others’ faults; but once again, God comforts them with His heavenly kindness and, at the same time, strengthens them spiritually.

Those who wrong or wound sensitive people inwardly are not human.

Those who claim they are sensitive, loving, and discreet and endure the injustices of others, but say, "Let them receive theirs from God," are fooled by the deceiver without realizing it, since this is a way to curse politely. In this life everyone takes exams in order to pass on to eternal life, Paradise. It is my feeling that this polite curse is below the spiritual passing mark.

Those who wrong others wrong themselves eternally; those who joyfully accept the injustice of others are entitled to an eternal reward with interest.

Naturally, every person will be paid by the boss for whom he worked. Those who work for Christ shall receive a hundredfold now in this time and, in the world to come, eternal life (Mark 10:30); and those who work for the dark boss will receive darkness even now.

Those who work for Christ but are prideful pollute their virtues, just as fried eggs are contaminated when bird’s droppings fall on them. They then can only be thrown in the trash along with the frying pan.

All those, however, who work humbly, acquire virtues and share their hidden experiences out of humility and love, are the greatest benefactors, because they give spiritual charity and positively help souls which are weak and unsound in the Faith. Those who throw even their own selves to the world, out of love, after having driven out the world from within them, fly into Heaven and are not caught by the world.

Love with external poverty greatly assists in acquiring the inner poverty of the passions. These two kinds of poverty make man rich in God’s kindness.

Good people do not keep evil in their hearts, but neither do they keep their kindness to themselves. For this reason, they do not possess elegant things and are not moved by the world’s beauties. In this, their fervent faith in God as well as their great love is made manifest.

There is no man more intelligent than the merciful one who gives away earthly, perishable things and buys imperishable, heavenly things. Likewise, there is no greater fool in the world than the greedy one who gathers things continually and yet is deprived continually, finally buying hell with his collected savings. Those, naturally, who are lost in material things are totally lost, for they have also lost Christ.

Sadness and stress always dominate the person who is dominated by material things, for sometimes he fears that people will take away his possessions, and other times he is afraid they will take away his soul. The miser, whose hand has become numb from squeezing it too hard, has also constricted his heart and turned it into stone. In order to be cured, he must visit destitute people and sympathize with them, so he will be forced to slowly open up his hand. Consequently, his stony heart will soften and become humane, and thus the gates of Paradise will also open for him.

Kindness softens and opens up the heart, as oil opens a rusty lock.

Those who come close to people in pain, naturally draw near to God, because God is always by the side of His children who are in pain.

God spiritually strengthens His children who have philotimo, who help their fellow men carry their crosses, and He relieves them from their own crosses (trials).

Those who think about the heavy crosses of the righteous, never worry about their own small trials, for, although they have made more mistakes in their life, they suffer less than the righteous.

Those who suffer trials unjustly imitate Christ; and those who face hardships due to their sins are blessed, because they are forgiven their sins in this life.

Those who do not co-suffer with those in pain, suffer from a fatal spiritual illness: mercilessness. Those who are annoyed by the moaning of sick people and react angrily because they cannot concentrate, suffer from many spiritual illnesses.

Those who truly love and struggle correctly, can also endure with love, sacrifice themselves, and give rest to their neighbor, who is Christ.

Those who wish others to provide for them but offer nothing in return, are constantly asking things from God without giving anything to Him, not even their sins (by repentance). Such people are completely estranged from God and deliver themselves of their own accord into the hands of the manslayer (the devil). Because they have only cultivated love for their own selves, it follows that great anguish will then develop in them and that they will suffer hell, in part, already in this life.

Those who do not put themselves in the place of their suffering fellow man are deserted by God, experience a terrible fall, and learn to feel pain. Those, on the other hand, who feel compassion, care for other people, and ignore their own selves, are protected by God and are looked after both by God and by men.

When someone gives his heart to God, then the mind of this man is also seized by the love of God. He is indifferent towards worldly things and continually thinks about the Heavenly Father, and being divinely in love, he glorifies his Creator day and night like an angel.

Merely the thought of God’s benevolent acts is enough to make the heart of a person who has philotimo break; yet even more so, when he thinks of his numerous sins and the great mercy of God.

Those who struggle and sense their sinfulness as well as God’s loving-kindness and who trust in His great mercy, elevate their souls to Paradise with great confidence and little physical effort, if they have good intentions.

People who struggle hard, with much devotion, and have reached the angelic state to a certain extent and are nurtured with celestial honey, nevertheless offer nothing significant to God compared with what He has offered us. For they eat honey while offering Him wax. They eat sweet fruits and offer God tree resin with the censer. Therefore, we do nothing and offer nothing to God, compared with His great loving-kindness. For, while the Good God produces beautiful fruit with our rubbish or even with manure, in order to feed us, we wretched people turn beautiful fruit into manure.

As the kindness of God renders everything useful for a good purpose, so too must we, His creatures, make good use of everything in order to be benefited and benefit others.

Kind people naturally derive benefit even from their fellow men’s failings, for they use them as a strong brake on themselves in order to take care not to be derailed. But those who are deceitful, unfortunately, are not benefited, not even by other people’s virtues, because they interpret them with their wily lexicon, being darkened by the gloom of the manslayer. They spiritually wrong themselves and others, and are always upset and continually upset others with their spiritual darkness; whereas, actual cloudy weather causes sadness only to people who suffer from grief.

Kindness is one of God’s many qualities; therefore, it always spreads joy, drives away the clouds, and opens up hearts like the spring sunshine which makes the earth blossom. It even warms up snakes and takes them out of their cold holes so they, too, can enjoy God’s kindness.

Ill-tempered people are always strangled by thoughts, and with their frozen hearts they freeze and choke afflicted people who have come to them for consolation. Good-tempered people, on the other hand, with their spiritual (noble) love, being contrite with pain, strangle demons, liberate souls, and spread divine consolation to their fellow men.

Fervent spiritual love renders sensitive people more sensitive, and makes insolent ones more insolent.

An orphan, especially if it has lost its mother, and even if it is a little porcupine, must be embraced with pain and fervent love, so as to first feel warmth, take courage, and open up its heart.

The fervent love of Christ nourishes more than any other material food and gives many calories to the soul and body. Oftentimes, it even cures incurable diseases without medication and brings rest to souls.

Those who do not sacrifice their physical health for the love of Christ, scorning their bodily rest, will not find spiritual rest, either in this life or in the next, eternal life.

Those who, out of pure love, sacrifice even their own lives to protect their fellow men, imitate Christ. These people are, of course, the greatest heroes, because even death trembles before them, since they defy death out of love. Thus, they triumph with immortality, and, taking the key to eternity out from beneath the gravestone, they proceed freely to eternal blessedness.

It is preferable for a sensitive person to be himself killed once, out of love, in order to protect his fellow man, than to cop out or back out and be constantly slaughtered by his conscience for the rest of his life.

Sacrifice for our fellow man conceals our great love for Christ. Those who have good intentions to give alms, but have nothing and on this account are afflicted, give charity with the blood of their hearts.

Those who want to be martyred for the love of Christ when martyrdom is not an option, can manifest this love that burns within them through bodily asceticism for the sake of the souls of the reposed which are burning, so that these souls will find a little rest.

Indifferent and merciless people, who think only of their own selves, insensitively satisfying themselves, simultaneously fill their hearts with much anguish. Within them works the little worm of a troubled conscience, and they are tormented already in this life. Merciful people, on the other hand, since they are always filling others with love, are always filled with the love of God and His abundant blessings…

 Elder Paisios

Η δύναμη της ψυχής ( Γέροντας Ιωσήφ ο ησυχαστής )

Όλη η δύναμη της ψυχής είναι η προσευχή. Και καθώς το σώμα δυναμώνει με τις τροφές και τα διάφορα καρυκεύματα που του προσφέρουμε, έτσι και η ψυχή μας θέλει ευχή, ανάγνωση, λόγο προφορικό, να βλέπει παράδειγμα και έτσι λίγο-λίγο ξυπνάει! Με πολλή απλότητα να πορεύεσαι, για να βρεις την καθαρότητα της ψυχής. Η απλότητα είναι μεγάλη ευτυχία για την ψυχή!


Γέροντας Ιωσήφ ο ησυχαστής

Psalm 50- Orthodox chant ( video )

The power of charity ( St. John Chrysostom )

Their power is so great that they not only cleanse sins but even do away with death itself. Let me explain how.

And who, someone might claim, has become greater than death through charity? Don’t worry, my beloved. Learn, from looking at things as they actually are, that the power of charity has destroyed even the tyranny of death.

There was once a woman called Tabitha, which translates as Gazelle (Acts, 9, 36-43). It was her daily task to earn spiritual riches for herself through charitable works. She clothed the widows and gave them all her possessions. It happened, however, that she fell ill and died.



But see how these women who’d been helped by her were able to repay their benefactress at the right time. They went to Saint Peter, say the Scriptures, and showed him the clothes and other things Tabitha had made and done when she was with them. They missed their mother-figure, probably shed tears, and gave the apostle cause to feel sad on their behalf.

So what did the blessed Peter do? He “got down on his knees and prayed. Turning towards the dead woman, he said, ‘Tabitha, get up’. She opened her eyes, and, seeing Peter, sat up. He took her by the hand and helped her to her feet. Then he called for the believers, especially the widows, and presented her to them alive” (Acts 9, 40-1).

Do you see the power of the apostle, or rather of the Lord who acted through him? Do you see what a reward she received- even in this life- for her good works? Because tell me, what did she give to the widows that was as great a thing as they gave her? She gave them food and clothing, but they brought her back to life and helped her to be released from death. Or rather, not them, but our merciful Lord, because of the services she had rendered them.

Do you see the power of the medicament? Let us all prepare it for ourselves, because, even though it’s so powerful, it’s not at all expensive. In fact, it’s really cheap, so it doesn’t require any great outlay. Because the value of charitable works doesn’t depend on vast amounts of money, but on the open-handedness of the people who do the giving. This is why somebody who gives a glass of cold water is well-received: so that we’ll learn that the Lord of all asks good will from each of us. It often happens that a person will do a great act of charity, even though they haven’t actually got that much themselves. This happens when their good intentions are very firm. And, of course, the opposite occurs as well: a person may have a lot, yet, because they’re petty by nature, it appears that they have less than those who indeed have little.

So, from the good things that the Lord has given us, let’s give generously to those in need. And what He’s given us, let’s give back to Him, so that they’ll become ours again, very much multiplied. Because the noble pride of the Lord is so great that, even though He receives what He Himself has given, He doesn’t consider that He’s receiving His own things, but promises to repay us for them with even greater generosity. But only if we want to demonstrate our own [generosity]. In other words, to give to the poor as if we were putting our gift into the hand of God, bearing in mind that the hand that receives our gift will not merely return it, but will grant us a hundred times more, thus demonstrating His great kindness towards us.

And why does He multiply this gift? Because, if we’re willing to give away something of what’s been given to us by the Lord Himself, and so long as we are willing to do that, then His hand not only returns the gift to us, but, along with it, He grants us the Kingdom of Heaven and acclaims us and crowns us and gives us innumerable good things.

So, is He asking something burdensome or difficult of us? Whatever’s uselessly and pointlessly shut away in chests and store-rooms, He wants us to share out, as we should, we ourselves, so that from this He can find occasion to crown us with all due ceremony. Because He hastens and rushes and is careful to ensure that what He’s promised us does actually come about.

I would beg you, therefore that we should not deprive ourselves of such wonderfully good things… What we have pointlessly stored, we should share for the upkeep of the poor. In this, there’s no chance that we’ll ever miss the mark; neither need we fear failure, which is what happens here on earth. Because it says: “He scattered, he gave to the poor”. And listen to what follows: “And his righteousness endures unto the ages of ages” (Ps. 111, 3).

What a wonderful sharing! In a brief period of time He made the distribution and His love lasts forever. Is anything that might exist more felicitous than that?

This is why I beg you, let us earn the love of God through charitable works so that it might truly be said of us, too, that they scattered, they gave to the poor, their love will last for ever. Because He spoke, scattered, and gave so that you wouldn’t think that what had been scattered was lost. Because He adds immediately: “His righteousness lasts unto the ages of ages”. The righteousness of those who have shared, remains unblemished, it stretches out into eternity and never ends.

St. John Chrysostom

Η αγάπη δεν ζητιέται. ( Αγιος Πορφύριος )

«Μακριά από τη Ζήλια. Τον κατατρώγει τον άνθρωπο. Από φθόνο, μια Μοναχή προς άλλη, την φαντάστηκε να ασχημονεί με τον πνευματικό, και το έλεγε σαν πραγματικότητα.

Όλα γίνονται στο φθονερό άνθρωπο. Εγώ τα έζησα. Οι άνθρωποι με είχαν για καλό και ερχόντουσαν πολλοί για να εξομολογηθούν. Και μου τα έλεγαν με ειλικρίνεια.

Μακριά από αυτά τα γυναικίστικα παράπονα. Το Χριστό, μωρέ, το Χριστό να αγαπήσουμε με πάθος, με θείο έρωτα.

Ευτυχισμένος ο μοναχός που έμαθε να αγαπάει όλους μυστικά. Δεν ζητά από τους άλλους αγάπη, ούτε τον νοιάζει να τον αγαπούν.

Εσύ αγάπα όλους, και προσεύχου μυστικά μέσα σου. Ξέχυνε την αγάπη σου προς όλους. Και θα έλθει ώρα που θα αγαπάς αβίαστα. Και θα νιώθεις, ότι όλοι σ’ αγαπούν. Ένα κοσμικό τραγούδι λέει:

«Μη μου ζητάς να σ’ αγαπώ.

Η αγάπη δεν ζητιέται.

Μέσα στα φύλλα της καρδιάς

μονάχη της γεννιέται».

Πάρ’ το πνευματικά. Εσύ σκόρπα φυσικά, από την καρδιά σου, την αγάπη του Χριστού.

Μερικοί μοναχοί, ιδίως γυναίκες, λένε:

- Μ’ αγαπάς;

- Γιατί δεν μ’ αγαπάς;

Πω πω! Πόσο μακριά είναι από την αγάπη του Χριστού!

Φτώχεια, πνευματική φτώχεια.

Μη σε νοιάζει αν σ’ αγαπούν. Εσύ μόνο ξεχείλιζε από αγάπη Χριστού προς όλους. Και τότε μυστικά έρχεται μια μεταβολή, μια αλλαγή σ’ όλο το σύνολο. Αυτό που σου λέω είναι η καλύτερη ιεραποστολή. Εφάρμοσέ το και τηλεφώνησέ μου τα αποτελέσματα».



Αγιος Πορφύριος

About Fasting ( Saint Seraphim of Sarov )

The leader of feats and our Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ, before setting out on the feat of redeeming the human race, fortified Himself with a lengthy fast. And all ascetics, proceeding to work for the Lord, armed themselves by fasting and did not set out on the path of the Cross without the feat of fasting. They measured the very success of their ascetism by their success in fasting.

Despite their fasting, and to the surprise of others, the holy fathers did not know weakness but always remained hearty, strong and ready for the task at hand. Illnesses were rare among them and their lives were extraordinarily prolonged.

During the time that the body of one fasting becomes thin and light, the spiritual life attains to perfection and reveals itself through miraculous manifestations. The spirit then performs its actions as if in a bodiless body. External feelings are as shut out, and the mind, renouncing the worldly, ascends to the heavenly and becomes completely immersed in the contemplation of the spiritual world. Yet not everyone can take upon himself strict rules of abstinence from everything, nor deprive himself completely of all that serves to relieve infirmities: "He that is able to receive it, let him receive it" (Mt. 19:12).

One should take enough food everyday to strengthen the body, so that it can be a friend and helper to the soul in accomplishing virtues: otherwise it can happen that through the exhaustion of the body the spirit can weaken. On Wednesdays and Fridays, particularly during the four Lenten periods, follow the example of the Fathers and take food once a day — and the Angel of the Lord will affix himself to you.



Saint Seraphim of Sarov

The Toll Houses

The most detailed version of the toll-houses occurs in a vision of Gregory of Thrace, apparently from the 10th century. The demons accuse the soul at each toll-house of sins. In some cases the demon might accuse the soul of sins that they tempted her with, but it didn't comply with, or of sins that she repented for, and in that cases one of the angels, the one which was the persons guardian angel, speaks for the person, saying that those are lies, and that payment is not necessary, taking the soul to the next toll-house. If a person has unrepented sins, and does not have enough good deeds and prayers of the living to pay for them, the demons of the corresponding toll-house grab him, and take him to hades to await the final judgment. This vision recounts the toll-houses in the following order:
At the first aerial toll-house, the soul is questioned about sins of the tongue, such as empty words, dirty talk, insults, ridicule, singing worldly songs, too much or loud laughter, and similar sins.
The second is the toll-house of lies, which includes not only ordinary lies, but also the breaking of oaths, the violation of vows given to God, taking God's name in vain, hiding sins during confession, and similar acts.
The third is the toll-house of slander. It includes judging, humiliating, embarrassing, mocking, and laughing at people, and similar transgressions.
The fourth is the toll-house of gluttony, which includes overeating, drunkenness, eating between meals, eating without prayer, not holding fasts, choosing tasty over plain food, eating when not hungry, and the like.
The fifth is the toll-house of laziness, where the soul is held accountable for every day and hour spent in laziness, for neglecting to serve God and pray, for missing Church services, and also for not earning money through hard, honest labor, for not working as much as you are paid, and all similar sins.
The sixth toll-house is the toll-house of theft, which includes stealing and robbery, whether small, big, light, violent, public, or hidden.
The seventh is the toll-house of covetousness, including love of riches and goods, failure to give to charity, and similar acts.
The eight is the toll-house of usury, loan-sharking, overpricing, and similar sins.
The ninth is the toll-house of injustice- being unjust, especially in judicial affairs, accepting or giving bribes, dishonest trading and business, using false measures, and similar sins.
The tenth is the toll-house of envy.
The eleventh is the toll-house of pride- vanity, self-will, boasting, not honoring parents and civil authorities, insubordination, disobedience, and similar sins.
The twelve is the toll-house of anger and rage.
The thirteenth is the toll-house of remembering evil- hatred, holding a grudge, and revenge.
The fourteenth is the toll-house of murder- not just plain murder, but also wounding, maiming, hitting, pushing, and generally injuring people.
The fifteenth is the toll-house of magic- divination, conjuring demons, making poison, all superstitions, and associated acts.
The sixteenth is the toll-house of lust- fornication, unclean thoughts, lustful looks, unchaste touches.
The seventeenth is the toll-house of adultery.
The eighteenth is the toll-house of sodomy: bestiality, homosexuality, incest, masturbation, and all other unnatural sins.
The nineteenth is the toll-house of heresy: rejecting any part of Orthodox faith, wrongly interpreting it, apostasy, blasphemy, and all similar sins.
The last, twentieth toll-house is the toll-house of unmercifulness: failing to show mercy and charity to people, and being cruel in any way.

Η θεία μέθη ( Γέροντας Παΐσιος )

- Γέροντα, φοβάμαι μήπως δεν σωθώ.

- Μη φοβάσαι∙ μαζί θα πάμε επάνω. Μόνο να πης στην Γερόντισσα να μας δώση δύο μεγάλα μπουκάλια για τον δρόμο -πρόσεξε να είναι πλαστικά για να μην σπάσουν στο ταξίδι!... Θα τα γεμίσουμε νερό και ,μέχρι να ανεβούμε στον Ουρανό, από την κούραση θα το πιούμε! Μόνον τρία δάκτυλα θα αφήσουμε και θα παρακαλέσουμε τον Χριστό να το ευλογήση, να το κάνη κρασί και μετά θα το πιούμε και θα μεθύσουμε πνευματικά κοντά στον Χριστό.

- Γέροντα, ποιό είναι αυτό το νερό;

- Είναι η αγάπη προς τον χριστό και τους αδελφούς .

- Και η μέθη;

- Είναι η μέθη από το Άγιο πνεύμα. Αυτοί που μεθούν από το Άγιο Πνεύμα , αγάλλονται συνέχεια από την στοργή του Θεού, του Πατέρα τους.

Αν μεθύση ο άνθρωπος πνευματικά με το ουράνιο κρασί, η ζωή του εδώ στην γη γίνεται μαρτυρική, με την καλή όμως έννοια. Αχρηστεύεται για τον κόσμο, αδιαφορεί για καθετί γήινο και όλα τα «θεωρεί σκύβαλα». Βλέπεις, όσοι πίνουν πολύ και μεθούν, μετά δεν νοιάζονται για τίποτε. «Μπάρμπα- Θανάση, το καλύβι σου καίγεται», φώναζαν σε κάποιο γεροντάκι που το καλύβι του είχε πάρει φωτιά. «Άσ’ το να καή» έλεγε αυτός, γιατί είχε πιει και ήταν μεθυσμένος!...

Η άλλη μέθη, η ουράνια, είναι καλή, αλλά πρέπει να είναι κανείς συνέχεια εκεί, στο ατέλειωτο βαρέλι, το ουράνιο. Εύχομαι να βρήτε την παραδεισένια θεία κάνουλα και να πίνετε και να μεθάτε συνέχεια από το παραδεισένιο κρασί. Αμήν!


Γέροντας Παΐσιος

Καλοπερνας καλα !!!! ( Γέροντας Τύχων )

Πολύ στενοχωριόταν, όταν έβλεπε καλοθρεμμένο νέο, και περισσότερο, όταν έβλεπε καλοθρεμμένο Καλόγηρο, επειδή δεν ταιριάζουν τα παχιά με το
Αγγελικό Σχήμα.


Μια μέρα τον επισκέφτηκε ένας λαϊκός πολύ χονδρός και του λέει:
- Γέροντα, έχω πόλεμο σαρκικό με βρώμικους λογισμούς, πού δεν μ' αφήνουν καθόλου να ησυχάσω.
Ό Παπα - Τυχών του είπε:
- Εάν, παιδί μου, εσύ θα κάνης υπακοή, με την Χάρη του Χρίστου εγώ θα σε κάνω Άγγελο. Να λες, παιδί μου, συνέχεια την ευχή, το Κύριε Ιησού Χριστέ, ελέησόν με, και να περνάς όλες τις ήμερες με ψωμί και νερό, και το Σάββατο και την Κυριακή να τρως φαγητό με λίγο λάδι. Να κάνης και από εκατόν πενήντα μετάνοιες την νύκτα και να διαβάζης μετά την Παράκληση της Παναγίας και ένα κεφάλαιο από το Ευαγγέλιο και το Συναξάρι του Αγίου της ημέρας.
 

Μετά από έξιμήνες, πού τον ξαναεπισκέφτηκε, ο Γέροντας δεν μπόρεσε να τον γνωρίση, γιατί είχαν φύγει όλα τα περίσσια παχιά, και με ευκολία πια
χωρούσε από την στενή πόρτα του Ναού του.

 Ό Γέροντας τον ρώτησε:
- Πώς περνάς τώρα, παιδί μου;
Κι εκείνος απήντησε:
- Τώρα νιώθω πραγματικά σαν Άγγελος, γιατί δεν έχω ούτε σαρκικές ενοχλήσεις ούτε και βρώμικους λογισμούς και αισθάνομαι πολύ ελαφρός, πού έφυγαν τα πάχη. 


Γέροντας Τύχων

Πρέπει να αγωνίζομαστε σ' αυτή τη ζωή ( Γέροντας Ιωσήφ ο ησυχαστής )

Σ' αυτή τη ζωή είναι αγώνας. Με τα ακάθαρτα πνεύματα πολεμάς, που δε σου ρίχνουν γλυκά και λουκούμια, αλλά σφαίρες οξείες που θανατώνουν ψυχή, όχι σώμα. 

Γέροντας Ιωσήφ ο ησυχαστής 

Clearing our thoughts during prayer ( Elder Sophrony Sakharov )

Elder Sophrony writes:

By prayerfully fixing his attention in his heart, the ascetic strives to preserve his spirit from all thought. Thoughts may be natural in everyday life but they can also be consequent on satanic influence. In prayer, the ascetic renounces for the time being, to the degree that he finds possible (Which differs from person to person), the needs of his nature. Thoughts of demonic origin,one excludes altogether. This means that the mind at prayer rejects all thought, both natural and demonic....He then warns about lights that may appear during prayer

Sometimes something occurs in deep-set prayer that is difficult to explain. lights appear around the mind, trying to attract the mind's attention to themselves, and if the mind refuses to pay attention, they, as i were,say to the mind, 'We bring you wisdom and understanding, and if you refuse us now, maybe you will never see us again.' But the experienced mind pays no attention whatever and they depart, not only unaccepted but even unacknowledged. The mind does not know for sure if it was an evil enemy or a good angel; but it does know by experience that if it stops to consider the brilliant thought, it loses prayer, and with great pains must seek it again. Experience shows that in the hour of prayer we must not listen even to good thoughts because if we do, other ideas will occur and, as elder Silouan said, 'You will not continue undistracted.' Nothing can compensate for the loss of pure prayer." (Sophrony, His LIfe is Mine, p 114)The key is not to expect not to have thoughts but do not accept or consider them during prayer. When they come politely reject them and return your attention to your prayer.


Elder Sophrony Sakharov

Key points for our salvation ( Saint Theophan the Recluse )

Many people who call themselves Christians say that it is through faith alone that you will be saved. This is a dangerous error. Salvation requires that we receive the Holy Spirit.


Saint Theophan comments,

"Believe, believe, and the Holy Spirit will come." This is the biggest lie. Faith is indeed an indispensable condition for receiving the Holy Spirit, but the very receiving of the gift comes about not from faith alone, but from faith through the Divinely-established Mysteries. This is how it was even in Apostolic times.Our current culture is misled by our dependence on rational thought which leads us to accept the idea that we only need to believe and we can be saved. This is an intellectual deception. We cannot intellectually think of God and then expect to receive the Holy Spirit which is His saving grace. This Spirt only comes with the Sacraments of His Church.


Saint Theophan makes this point through the story of Paul in Ephesus. When he came to Ephesus Paul encountered several believers and asked them if they had received the Holy Spirit. They answered that they had not even heard of the Holy Spirit. They had been baptized with the baptism of John the Forerunner. Saint Paul then baptized them with the baptism of Christ and after that he laid his hands on them and they were filled with the Holy Spirit. The baptism they had received earlier was only a renewal and a preparation for receiving the saving Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit came through the laying on of Hands. Later the Apostles introduced Holy Chrism (a holy oil) to be used instead of the laying on of hands. Today in the Orthodox Church one is received into the Body of Christ though baptism and the sacrament of Chrismation where one receives the Holy Spirit. This sacramental act is essential.


Many Christian churches in this country do not have this sacrament. They preach the idea of faith alone. They require a confession of faith and then baptize in water, an act which is often seen as merely symbolic of their commitment to Christ. Those who follow this direction are grossly misled and never receive the Holy Spirit which they must have for union with God.


Now once you have this gift that comes through the sacrament of Chrismation, you need to nurture it so its presence and action will grow within you. If you fail to do so it will remain latent or hidden. If ignored, eventually it will become inactive. Then it is difficult to resurrect it. This is why we have the other sacraments of Holy Confession and Holy Communion to help us maintain the active work of the Holy Spirit which comes to us through these sacraments. Of course we have faith, but we also receive the Holy Spirit through Chrismation and continually renew its presence through the other sacraments. It also why we are continually engaging in ascetic efforts to purify our heart so that the "fire" of the Holy Spirit will be fanned and be allowed to act through all our bodily actions. In this way we can become virtuous and follow the Commandments of God. This is the Way to union with God and salvation.



Saint Theophan the Recluse

Reference: The Spiritual Life, p 282

Laziness ( Elder Ambrose of Optina )

Tedium is the grandson of despondency and the daughter of laziness. To drive her away, exert yourself in work and don’t be lazy with prayers: then your tedium will pass and zeal will arrive. And if you add to this patience and humility, then you will rid yourself of many banes." Sometimes posing his own question: "Why do people sin?" the Starets would answer: "Either from not knowing what you have to do and what you have to avoid; or if they do know, they forget, and if they did not forget, then they are lazy and become despondent. Conversely: as people are very lazy when it comes to performing good deeds, they very often forget their main responsibility that of serving God. Laziness and forgetfulness leads to extreme senselessness or ignorance. These are the three ogres: despondency or laziness, forgetfulness and ignorance, from which the whole human race is bound through the shackles of indecision. Whereupon, carelessness follows with all its multitude of evil desires. That is why we pray to the Queen of Heaven: "Most-holy …"



Elder Ambrose of Optina

Acquiring humility ( Elder Paisios )

The elder said: Humility is acquired after struggles. When you know yourself you acquire humility, which become a (permanent) condition. Otherwise one can become humble for a moment, but your thought will say to you that you are something although in reality you're nothing. and you'll be deluded like that to the moment of death. If death finds you with the thought that you are nothing, then God will speak. If however your thought says at the hour of death that you are something and you don't understand it, all your effort goes to waste.

Elder Paisios

Ἡ ἀπληστία καὶ ἡ θεοεγκατάλειψη ( Άγιος Πορφύριος )

Γύρω στὸ 1979, πέρασα μιὰ ἀπὸ τὶς δυσκολότερες περιόδους τῆς ζωῆς μου, μὲ ἀλλεπάλληλα χτύπηματα. Αὐτὸ κράτησε γιὰ ἕνα χρόνο περίπου καί, ὅπως καταλαβαίνω τώρα, ὅλα ἔγιναν γιὰ νὰ συνετιστῶ, διότι εἶχα ἀρχίσει πλέον νὰ σκέπτομαι ὑπεροπτικά. Εἶχα ἀρχίσει νὰ μπαίνω σ’ ἕναν ἄλλο τρόπο σκέψης, πιστεύοντας πὼς ὅποιος εἶναι ἐξυπνότερος μπορεῖ νὰ κοροϊδεύει καὶ τοὺς ἄλλους.

Εἴχαμε μία ἑταιρεία εἰσαγωγῆς ὑφασμάτων μαζὶ μὲ κάποιον ἄλλο καὶ κερδίζαμε πολλὰ χρήματα. Μὲ κάθε εἰσαγωγὴ κερδίζαμε πέντε μὲ δέκα χιλιάδες λίρες. Τεράστια ποσά! Κι ἔκανα μεγάλη ζωὴ τότε. Ὅλα αὐτὰ ὅμως ἦταν χτισμένα ἐπάνω σὲ μεγάλες ἀπάτες, οἱ ὁποῖες μᾶς ὁδηγοῦσαν ὁλοένα καὶ σὲ μεγαλύτερες.  Ἦρθε ὅμως κάποια στιγμὴ καὶ ὁ φραγμός. Ποιὸς ἦταν ὁ φραγμός;

[ ...] Πληγώθηκα καὶ ἀπογοητεύτηκα. Καὶ σὰν νὰ μὴν ἔφτανε αὐτό, μοῦ πῆραν καὶ ἕνα μαγαζί. Καὶ ἀμέσως μετὰ δέχτηκα ἕνα χτύπημα ἀπὸ τὴν ἴδια μου τὴν οἰκογένεια. Ἡ στενοχώρια μου ἦταν ἀφόρητη. «Τὶ παντρεύεσαι, ἀφοῦ δὲν εἶσαι ἱκανὸς νὰ συντηρήσεις οἰκογένεια;» σκεφτόμουν. «Σοῦ πῆραν τὸ μαγαζί.   Ἔχεις πάθει τόσα πράγματα…». Καὶ ὑπῆρξε καὶ συνέχεια [...]

Κλονίστηκα. Ἡ τράπεζα, τὸ μαγαζί, τὸ συμβόλαιο, τὸ σπίτι, ἀπὸ ὅλα τὰ σημεῖα, ἀλλεπάλληλα χτυπήματα μέσα σὲ ἕνα μήνα.   Ἔφτασα σὲ τέτοια κατάσταση, ποὺ ἔβλεπα τὴν ἐλιὰ γιὰ γίγαντα, γιὰ κολοσσό. Χρειάστηκε νὰ βγάλω κάτι φωτογραφίες τότε καὶ συνειδητοποίησα ὅτι εἶχε ἀλλοιωθεῖ τὸ πρόσωπό μου. Ἐκεῖ θυμήθηκα τὸν πολύαθλο  Ἰώβ. Πάγωσε τὸ σπίτι. Τὰ παιδιά μου ἔπεσαν σὲ μελαγχολία. [ ...]



Ἐκεῖ κατάλαβα τί θὰ πεῖ ἐγκατάλειψη Θεοῦ. Ἡ τρομερότερη κόλαση εἶναι ἡ ἀπομάκρυνση τοῦ ἀνθρώπου ἀπὸ τὸν Θεό. Ἂν δὲν ἔχανα τὰ λεφτά μου ὅλα καὶ δὲν βίωνα αὐτὴ τὴν ἐγκατάλειψη, δὲν θὰ γνώριζα τὴν παραμυθία τῆς Χάριτος. Διάβαζα ἐκείνη τὴν περίοδο πολλὰ βιβλία καὶ ἰδίως τὶς «παραινέσεις πρὸς Ὀλυμπιάδα» τοῦ Ἱεροῦ Χρυσοστόμου. Μοῦ συνέβαινε αὐτὸ ποὺ διαβάζουμε στὸν  Ἰώβ, «θὰ ἔρχεται τὸ πρωὶ καὶ θὰ λὲς πότε νὰ ἔρθει τὸ βράδυ καὶ θὰ ἔρχεται τὸ βράδυ καὶ θὰ λὲς πότε νὰ ξημερώσει». Αὐτὸ πάθαινα. Νομίζω πὼς ἄλλη κόλαση ἀπ’ αὐτὴ δὲν ὑπάρχει. Σὰν νὰ μὲ πονοῦσαν ταυτόχρονα ὅλα μου τὰ δόντια! Τέτοιος πόνος! Ὁ ψυχικὸς πόνος εἶναι τρομακτικός. Δὲν συγκρίνεται μὲ τὸν σωματικὸ πόνο. [...]

Παράλληλα ἔβλεπα πολὺ τρομακτικὰ ὄνειρα! Εἶναι αὐτὸ ποὺ λέει πάλι ὁ  Ἰώβ, «κοιμᾶμαι καὶ βλέπω ἐφιάλτες τρομακτικούς». Ἂν ἤμουν ζωγράφος, θὰ μποροῦσα νὰ ζωγραφίσω αὐτὰ τὰ ὁποῖα ἔβλεπα. Νὰ βλέπεις κύματα μαῦρα κι ἐσὺ νὰ εἶσαι μέσα στὴ θάλασσα καὶ νὰ λὲς καταποντίζομαι. Νὰ βουί­ζει ὁλόκληρη ἡ θάλασσα, καὶ τὰ κύματα νὰ εἶναι τεράστια καὶ μαῦρα. Ὁλόμαυρα κύματα! Καὶ ἡ κατάσταση αὐτὴ δὲν κράτησε μία μέρα ἢ δύο, ἀλλὰ ἕνα ὁλόκληρο χρόνο!

Σιγὰ-σιγὰ ὅμως τὰ κατάφερα. Σὲ αὐτὸ μὲ βοήθησε καθοριστικὰ ἡ γνωριμία μου μὲ τὸν Γέροντα Πορφύριο. Εἶναι αὐτὸ ποὺ λένε, «διήλθομεν διὰ πυρὸς καὶ ὕδατος, καὶ ἐξήγαγες ἡμᾶς εἰς ἀναψυχήν»! Ἀρκεῖ νὰ ἔχουμε τὴν ἀντοχὴ ἢ μᾶλλον τὴν ὑπομονή. Ὅπως λέει ὁ Κύριος, «ἐν τῇ ὑπομονῇ ὑμῶν κτήσασθε τὰς ψυχὰς ὑμῶν». Δὲν τὸ ἔχουμε συλλάβει αὐτό. Εἶναι καθαρὰ θέμα πίστεως. Καὶ ἡ πίστη εἶναι θέμα ἐμπιστοσύνης.   Ὄχι πίστης λογικῆς, ἀλλὰ καρδιακῆς. Ἐμπιστοσύνη στὸν Θεὸ Πατέρα.






Ἀπὸ τὸ βιβλίο “Η ΠΡΟΝΟΙΑ ΤΟΥ ΘΕΟΥ“, του Ἰωάννη Μαρουσιώτη, ἔκδ. Ι.Γ.Η.Μ.Σ. 2013, σελ. 122-125